Cellphones. Love. Life.

What is it about people and the need to keep on updating and replacing and upgrading our stuff? Not only is it a time consuming, mind boggling thing to do, but on a more practical note, it is a very expensive hobby.

We live in a world of consumerism where wants and desires are escalating but the means to buy is plummeting. And yet our craving is excessively increasing.

Is it possible that the reason behind this never-ending cycle is because we seldom take even just a moment to think things through?

I have been employed for almost 3 years, give or take a few months. Like most people my age, my first splurge was on a good mobile phone. The choices available is endless. However, from the very start, I wanted a Nokia 6600. Before I bought it, I already made up my mind that this is most probably the best phone to suit my needs. It has all the features I need and more.

Despite the abuse I've unintentionally subjected it to, my phone is very loyal to me.

I've dropped it while jogging upstairs
I've dropped it on asphalt while alighting from a high vehicle
I've left it in an editing room where strangers come and go

It has proven its worth and loyalty to me (if inanimate objects may be called loyal, my phone tops the list) and I have yet to feel the urge to sell it.

This attitude is something I pride myself in. When I decide to love, I will give love. When I have professed loyalty, I will give loyalty.

This is why it boggles my mind how quickly other people forget and move on. Don't get me wrong. I don't believe in living in the past. However, I do believe that we should accord respect to the things... to the PEOPLE that brought us joy, gave us love and even if just for a moment, made us the center of their lives.

Why are we always in a hurry? The world is moving fast enough for all of us. Maybe, if we took the time to rest, we will do ourselves a favor and realize that we have it made and there is no need to throw the current for the uncertain next.

Here's to new friendships!

I've always been shy. Haha. I can almost imagine my friends choking back their laughters. But really. Sure, you'll see my hamming it up with people and mine is probably the loudest and possibly the most annoying laughter in a room. I love performing and making a fool of myself. I love expressing my opinions on just about anything, even in a public arena. Probably, better phrased as ESPECIALLY in a public arena.

However, therein lies the paradox of my being (oh, yes, let's be philosophical here ). While I'm probably the last person to back off from the public's eye, I am also most likely the last person to start a conversation afterwards. I don't know where that's coming from...

There are simply moments when I can't. I can't seem to find common topics to discuss. I amaze even myself with the contrast I find within myself. And during the moments I do have those conversations, that's just it, it is just a moment. On our following meetings, at most, I'll give a happy greeting then just keep quiet.

I only have a few close relationships so those relationships, I treasure.

Thus, I think it's amazing when I am given the blessing to begin new friendships or deepen existing superficial ones. I enjoy hanging out with friends and would rather do this sitting in a quiet spot rather than dancing in a noisy bar (though I do crave for this once in a while).

I am nurturing two budding friendships now and I am feeling very happy about it.

I just wish I will be given more opportunities to discover new friendships or to rekindle old ones. Whatever the case, I aim to challenge myself to go beyond my comfort zone and explore what I have been missing out on just because I was too hesitant to try.

Sinta... So beautiful

I just saw for the first time Sinta in Dulaang Sibol... In one word - BEAUTIFUL... I am willing to watch it over and over again...Pero I guess Dr. Pagsy (forgive me, I hope I got his name and title right), is correct when he said you need to have experienced life to truly grasp the beauty of the play. There were so many beautiful lines in the play and I had so many thoughts about them. Apologies if I am to misquote some if not all of the lines I remembered from the play.

"Bakit ang binhi kailangan tabunan, paglamayan ng ulan, bago maging halaman?"

Wow. Not only is that a beautiful line in the literary sense but all the reflections that come to mind from that one line is truly ... wow...

It makes a good explanation for all the growing up we have to do in this life. We have to feel pressure, shed tears and go through this for some time before we are ready to become a blessing to others.
One way of growing up is to have your heart broken. Everyone who has been through this will probably say, hands down, this is one of the hardest, most difficult and pero (sana), rewarding things you have to experience. Though honestly, sometimes I still think what reward have I gained. Kidding. My heartbreak experience was so painful, there were times it translated to the physical. And then there were days when all you did was pray for God to help you stop feeling anything for that person. Yup. So Bruce Almighty with that Jennifer Aniston scene. Bottom line, having your heart broken is not fun. That's why when Narding asked Sinta how she was and if she got wounded herself... I'll try to quote the dialogue

"Nasugatan ka ba?" And Sinta replied, "Sa mga paraang hindi mo mahuhulaan."

I guess heartbreak stories where the girl is left behind is a dime a dozen. What is not being appreciated (?) is the fact that the hurt felt is really so unimaginable that to begin to describe it might even belittle it. There are really just some emotions that even the most gifted writer will fail to describe.
But on the other side of the fence is the guy who did the leaving behind.

"Nanligaw ka ba?" And Narding replied, "Nagkaligaw-ligaw"

Yup. It's the lost boy syndrome. Basing my observations on the play, it is also difficult for the man (boy) to be beaten, to be blinded by the lights and to taste the sweet but poisonous and often fleeting taste of life in the fast lane. And it is sad when in the end, he realizes that the girl he left behind was really all he was looking for.
It will be wonderful if after all the growing up our broken hearted couples had to go through, they will be given the chance to make amends.

In the play when Narding returned to Sinta...

Sinta asked, "Anong nangyari sayo?" And Narding asnwered, "Nangyari sa akin ang mundo"

It was a painful and yet liberating line. It sums up the play. You experience life and will at times have your dreams shattered and your self-worth trodden on.

But in the end, it is wonderful to find your true dream still waiting for you. Narding and Sinta found out that after all they had to go through, they were meant to find home in each other. The thing was, it was difficult for them to pledge their love. They already did it once and it crumbled, so they were being very careful now.

In my mind and in my heart, I believe that true love will always find ways to come true. No matter how painful the heartbreak and how humiliating the shame, true love is the perfect balm to start the healing of broken souls.